Sleepwalk

After a few days of conversations, Mom has begun sleeping again.
On Saturday, Mom slept the entire day after breakfast. Late in the evening Suzy held the phone to her ear while I spoke to her. Mom responded with "Hi!" and "I love you too!" Sunday, she slept the entire day. Her breathing became sporadically quick and deliberate. She did not respond to conversation.
After a quiet night, Monday was more of the same. Mom hadn't had food or medicine since Saturday morning. The Vital Care nurse, Colleen, visited in the afternoon. Her respirations were a bit high at 25 per minute; pulse 106; blood pressure 124/55; oxygenation low at 84. Colleen heard some fluid in her lungs. They decided not to put Mom through the discomfort of a blood draw. Dr. Karkosak told Suzy to increase her fentanil patch to compensate for her lack of morphine over the last few days.
In the late evening Monday, Olivia came to her bed and said, "Hi Grandma." Mom replied, "Hi honey." Mom had responded to some more light conversation when I spoke to Suzy around 10:30 p.m.
We're constantly asking ourselves how we can best help Mom. Suzy told me Sunday night that she knows there's a part of Mom that longs to be with the Lord, and there's another part that wants to stay. It's a contradiction with which the apostle Paul wrestled. We want her to stay as long as she wants, but as Suzy said to me last night, she knows God is excited about his unique Rose coming home to Him. We don't know what her last steps on earth will look like, but we know God does and we're looking for His guiding hand.